The "bottle" almost full....

" We can close the ears and eyes that we don`t want to see or heard
But we can`t close our heart to the things that we don`t want to feels"

It is true and soooo true....
Why i say so...
Cause if we can do so...
There wasn`t so many people commit suicide...
There wasn`t so many people finding the ways to run away....
AND
There wasn`t people CRY in the middle of the NITE...

Why do they cry... Why...
It is because they feel lonely...
The feeling that they do not wish to feel from the heart...
The fear, loneliness, unpeaceful, and worried....

I don`t know how many times
I had been told to myself
"Julia STOP crying in the middle of the nite"
But it seem can`t work....
The tears just fall down and it really does....

And

I also had been told myself that
" Julia hold it on... Ya... just hold it on... Just believe you can do it..."
"Julia everything will pass very fasts... Ya... Just let go let it be....Let`s forget everything...."
"Julia let give yourself a chance... everyday is a new day and there is a hope..."
"Julia....."    "Julia...."   "Julia...."

In fact,
All of this just make me feel more sick... and more loneliness....
It make me feel that there is no one for me...
And it is true... just so true....

Do you ever think of Commit Suicide....
Yes... I Do...
Ya, I do think of it seriously....

Maybe I would not die now but Somedays I will.....

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